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2006/12/30

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rofl. i am like rot of the rot. i cant take care of myself man. lazy to buy food. dun sleep at night. hiding myself at home whole day to rot and den complain of rotting. so no life. muahahahas.

[[jiajuN]]*|1:59 AM|

2006/12/27

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lol. its 5.30am and i tried to get to sleep budden i cant. although i have to wake up at 9am for project later. its either things troubling me that i cant get to sleep or cuz always sleep too late till body cant adjust back or my stomach feels empty. so now, i am infront on my comp, with a bowl of my favourite curry magee and den gonna watch bleach for awhile till i feel tired and can get to sleep. rofl. if i still cant, means its some things my mind is thinking of which made me unable to sleep. haha. kk. lame post. juz to describe wad i am doing now. ltr must act sleep. 27 more mins mum gg wake up for work le. ROFL. and arsenal rocks! won their away match 1-2. =D bb!

[[jiajuN]]*|5:28 AM|

2006/12/26

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haha. its 1 more week of holiday left for me. had alot out outings with rjt recently. i think everyone have had fun and some pek chek moments budden i guess everyone will still be happy with each another ba. i forget where i heard this from budden the thing saes "its your choice to be happy, angry, sad or wadeva emotions there are, so dun think that it is other people who are causing what u feel". lol. its abit chim la. budden i sumhow get it when i heard it. budden my way of explanation is very hard for people to understand la. LOL.

aiya. i will blog abt the outings when i get the photos ba. i juz love spending time with rjt la. hardly will ppl see how crazily i can luff throw everything out from me la. take care everyone and Merry Christmas and Boxing Day.

[[jiajuN]]*|5:45 PM|

2006/12/11

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ahah. didnt noe my previous entry got so touching. and made every of us confess how great and impt we are to each another. LOL. wanqi mentioned that it's only a abt a year since RJT this clique was formed although i have been frenz with most of them from abt 3-5 years. everyone will have ONE special and everlasting frenship and for me, its RJT and frenz from the uvPHS family who will stay on to uvPHS for life even after graduating. i think the reason why uvphs can stay so united is becuz the seniors always welcome the juniors and don't restrict themselves in making frenz with them ba. for me, the seniors of mine when i first came into the choir were definitely the most welcoming people that i've ever met. it dosent take long for me to start hanging out with them. i dunno since when this tradition started budden i'm glad it did. if not uvphs would not be what it is now.

ok. abt my poly life. i think i am a damn boastful person la. i can go around telling everyone i still haven study even when the exam's in 2 days time. budden i'm glad i did study 1 day before the paper. the 1st paper is already over and i think it's easy cuz i did complete all. easy becuz i THINK i am correct budden later answers come out all wrong. HAHA. i shall study for tml's paper after i blog finish. and its near 12am le. dunno wan study till wad time. juz now took a short nap cuz feeling damn tired and abit sick. since the start of holidays after last sem, i have been sleeping for around 3-8 hours a day. normally 6 hours. it aint better than sec sch's cuz its not healthy although i can be more slack. haha.

hao la. shld end this short. i cant wait for christmas and new year countdown with rockjaktwits. the 5th year i doing so. sad no carolling for us this year. take care people!

[[jiajuN]]*|11:20 PM|

2006/12/04

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ahah... while i was abt to blog... i went blog surfing around rockjaktwit blogs... and i found this from LLL blog which she found from sisca blog...
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

and wad it says after i pick the thingys

You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

hahas... dunno how true this is... anywae... i came like 1 hr early for sch and now i sitting at convention basement surfing the net lor... i still have assignments not yet completed which i was supposed to do yest night budden too tired le... now still dun feel like touching it... wanted to blog yesterday also... wanna write alot of personal messages to some ppl... hehe...

went shuluan's chalet last friday around evening... i got out of my hse at 7pm with a lousy mood... dunno wad's wrong also... i took mrt from woodlands all the way to city hall by myself and den asked ys meet me at end of cabin towards pasir ris... but i was at the front instead... LOL... only after bj and ke reached den i realised i was at the wrong side... hahas... gh wh nic and wq came followed by joyce and ll... began chatting and joking all the way from city hall to pasir ris... by the time i reached the chalet, my mood was totally opposite le... being with them made me forget abt my problems and indulge in the joy and laughter with them =D

didnt do much at the chalet la... play ps2, poker, soccer, game of life, watch movie and eat nia... its the 1st time chalet dun need worry abt food and money cuz all provided... really thx shuluan and her family for this chalet... we also had this agreement a few days before the chalet... that we had to assemble outside the chalet at 12am and 6pm on sat... i mouth itchy and sae for fun nia den those who nvr assemble will need forfeit... and i actually missed the 1st timing and had to do 8:2 as forfeit... and 8:2 means hair side parting... ROFL... i willing accept the forfeit budden wasnt able to properly to a 8:2 la... den wanqi very not satisfied... at the last day of the chalet, me sl and ll were supposed to find our bdae presents hidden in the room... really glad la... received a card, a converse wallet, a wild channel cap, a cake(which got infested by ants later) and a BALL POINT PEN and the GREATEST PRESENT OF ALL is to be able to spend my time with them la... lol...

yes. time for dedication of messages =) i will start with a short intro 1st. lol. the 1st ever choir chalet happened only during last year end december since i was sec 1 till now. If i rmb correctly all of us in RJT were there for the 1st one at Changi. Me bj gh wh ys nic ck ke joyce ll sl wq and xl. within the period of one year, we've already had 5 chalets. adding on the camps, tonning sessions and outings. i think we've spent around 50-100 days in one year of our lifes together even though we're not in the same school anymore. hahas. i am glad abt that budden i want more. i dunno sae how many times le budden its really great to spend time with them. ok. end of intro. i shall start according to age.

nic : ahah! my kia! since the day i shoot the basketball in with one hand 3 years ago. u noe wad? u're my greatest ever laughing partner man. we can laugh until we really ROFL(rolling on floor laughing) and of cuz u're still the most retarded among us making us who creates humor with dumb actions. ps for always scolding u cuz sumtimes u quite bo dua bo suay. dun mind me pls. dun feel left out cuz u're younger den us. in a few more years time we'll all have more memories to talk back abt liao. u better not dissapoint us hor. better promote!

ys : u and nic arh. 2 freaks. 2 youngest budden so dua jia. dun suan me sae is i suay jia. lol. bro for 4 years liao. from act innocent till become so wild. LOL. always have crushes older than u. its not a bad thing actually. even though got a period of time u always ps us, u're still one of us. o's over liao, better come out with us more to fill back the number of times u have been missing for. last time self acclaimed devil now wad? angel arh? wish u all e best with ur planet venus if got chance la hor.

ll : ahah! LLL. juz bdae huh? older than me by a few days nia hor. hmm. how shld i describe u? i think blur ba. LOL. am i right? u can clap offbeat liao anot? i think hor, each RJT has a special humorous characteristic sia. urs is very natural blur humor one. rofl. i noe i talking crap. i also dunno wad to sae sia. aiya. i jiang hua jiang yi ban la. after gh bj ke wh go army den guys lesser than girls liao. lol. and again. hope u and ys both get good o's results la. dun need worry sure get alot A's de.

joyce : the only one with english name without short form. nicholas can call nic. haha. u leh? joyceee. lols. hmm. so much of memories within 5 year of time. u bj and ck were the earliest RJT i noe ba. hahaha. u noe wad's the biggest change of u in my opinion from sec 1 till now? ur amount of frenz. its really super lot sia. tt's why so busy huh? really glad that we had become such frenz now. even though most of the time we're juz sharing our joy instead of woes, the woes are gone at the moment we having fun. i thinks its becuz of the frenship that RJT share, i can feel everyone's care and concern for each another even if they dun show it. even when all of us are busy with our own stuffs, i juz can feel we care alot for each other la. this type of things dosent neccesarily need to be shown in the outside. hope u can keep that in mind so no matter how much problems u encounter, u can still feel us without us being physically by ur side.

sl : da jia da jia! hahahas. to me, u're a very thoughtful person. from the way u planned wan qi's birthday that tym. glad that u enjoyed the hsm performance in singout. and i hope we all still get alot of chance to perform together in the coming years. singing and dancing is a passion that uvphs enjoy to do. actually i still cant memorize how to spell ur english name. budden dun worry! i noe how to pronounce! LOL. next time chalet got bbq help u pluck more prawns la hor. thx for ur chalet again arh! and change ur blog title! u're 18 already! no more forever 17. =P

xl : DA JIE! LOL! u rmb that i was ur god-bro ma? when i was sec 1 that tym still at the old sch building. lol. i think now also wont address u as god-sis le. budden it dosent matter right? u're in RJT this family so i can call u DA JIE instead of GAN JIE hor? and hor. ur that "ke ai de voice" can make ppl hair stand leh. lol. its getting late le and i wanna finish blogging today so ps arh next time write for u longer.

gh : pole. LOL. going army liao leh. still so thin. eat more la. ltr army come out become bamboo. u are the most not nerd smart kid that i noe. studies so good and noe how to enjoy life. i think i share most of my things with u liao. the one easier for me to communicate with. ur sense of humor also very special. sumtimes can so high level but sumtimes so cold. rofl. also my soccer betting helper. next year dun need u help le. i will be 18 le =) faster go army and come out la hor. one by one go in. we all very lonely 1 leh. rmb to eat more in army hor!

wh : LOL. ULTIMATE entertainer. ur humor is the most special one. very natural. the way u say things is funny to us. forgive us for always laughing at u k? u're still one of us =) thx for being such a great helper to us with the wide amount of knowledge that u have. get good A's results and study the course u wan in uni k? JIAYOU!

wq : kiki tan! fan of AWI, Ren Fu and Freddy. lols. u're juz like the da jie in rockjak twits. a girl with crazy laughter. bringing us to focus and leading us to discuss in sth. lolol. full of games learnt from tv which she shares with us. without u, a huge part of laughter will be gone. u taught us how to zi high. lols. always not free during sundays due to work. i wonder if there'll be a chalet where u can stay the full of it. i'll wait =) u're also a kind and helpful senior to me. one girl who dare to pursue wad she dreams for. BRAVO!

bj : LOLOLOL. another one with funny laughter, hand signs and pronounciation. try saying "fish" we had a great time playing game of life with u being a police. LOL. nvr fail to do that snap sound before collecting fine for overspeeding. u have the greatest male voice among us and is certainly very nice. wait next week go kbox let u have chance biao xian yi xia zhi ji. may u and cloud bai tou dao lao, zhao shen gui zhi. =D

ck : the strongest one, the bravest one, the leader of double JE. now in army attached to his beloved gf. he treats almost all his relationship very seriously. able to love boldly. willing to listen to other's problems. he taught me alot of things. GOOD and BAD ones. LOL. although he hardly meet up with us now, we'll always rmb him and wait for him to give us a drive when he gets a car.

ke : juz like a big brother. he takes care of us nvr asking back anything from us. proud and glad for him that he was able to cut down on his weight with his determination. feel sad that he aint able to join us for the kbox session before going army. he's a TALENT! in the music area. he can catch the tune and chords of any song and play it on guitar of piano by juz listening to the song once. thx for all the care and concern that u've gave us.

yk : the oldest! and of cuz the most respected for being a FIREMAN! LOL. jking. the love he has for uvphs can be seen juz by the amount of time he is still with us after graduating. the effort he has put in to help build uvphs. its touching to know that there is such a person around us. he's a teacher as well as a fren to many of the juniors. we'll definitely miss him when he goes for overseas education after completing his ns. uvphs will always rmb u.

yiling : mummy! glad ur name here ma? even though u dun hang out with us, u're still an impt person to me for being my mummy. lol. sorry for not wishing u happy bdae on ur bdae. i did rmb b4 ur bdae la. budden didnt remind myself on that day. lols. take care and see u school! ur every move i make rocks k! i wanna learn it next time =)

FINALLY! done! 1.48am le. sorry for the last few ppl where i have to rush and write finish. if i have the time to write more i will. there's juz so much that cant be describe by words which i want to sae. i hope all of u wish me all the best for my ct! lol. its next week! one final sentence!
I LOVE YOU GUYS, ROCKJAKTWITS <3

[[jiajuN]]*|8:22 AM|

2006/12/01

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SINGOUT. wad a concert. u noe wad? it did not only give me a sense of satisfaction. i juz realise i feel so much for it after the concert ended. it gave me sth called sense of belonging. the feeling that i belong here, i love the people, i love my frenz, i love the songs, i even love things that i dun like. "we're all in this together" means alot. i feel so troubled with myself. why? the reason is "love".

wad kind of person i am?
contradicting

why?
there is nothing which is 100% good or bad to me. i think of almost every possible outcome of a situation.my characteristics of a human being.

complicated

emotional

hua xing(maybe hua nao cuz flower minded, not my heart tt's acting)

selfish

dun like ppl to judge me

bhb(in alot of things)

ACT - in what ways?
-seeking attention
-creating humor
-act cool, act cute or wadeva

I COMPLAIN ALOT

Never Satisfied with what i have except for 1 thing which is "love" i get from my frenz and family. its such a wonder that love is such a powerful "thing".

why?
no matter how much i do well in something, i noe there's still so much to improve on. i have unlimited wants which every human being have too. be it objects or emtional wants, selfish or selfless wants.budden "love" this thing, once i have it from sumone, its enough. this thing cant be measured. love, alone, is powerful enough to create or solve any problems emotionally. like what i am feeling now, troubled by "love".truthfully, at the very beginning when i was told that alumni's are going to perform hsm for singout, i was excited budden as time goes on it became more of a trouble to me. nth is wrong with the item. its mewho lost my faith in it as i thought it will be juz a so-so item due to my lack of effort. budden by the time it was juz a few days near the performance, everything went out so smoothly. i see us getting into the dancewith so much energy and passion. it was juz like a miracle. i dare to sae that i have seen alot of miracles which happened in UVPHS. in performances and syf and now, sing out. it was definitely a successful concert i would sae.i am really lost for words now la. i couldnt interpret all my thoughts into words correctly.

i noe that i have so much memories in choir. singing with the alumnis of the past songs brings back alot of them. i also have alot of memories with the current batch of choir. i already started missing singout right after the wholething ended man. aiya. i really sian diao that i cant put down all my thoughts into words correctly. i juz noe i fell in love with singout and uvphs is where i belong.

where i belong, where i keep my heart and soul.
where dreams come true for us.
when we stand together hand in hand, towards a future so bright.

t's all. i dunno wad i can sae abt my love life. i am too hua xing le. fuck it.

[[jiajuN]]*|12:57 AM|